Mainly because I can't keep managing all of them at once, right? I just have SO SO SO much to do and want them all done by the end of this January. Exhausting! I didn't even begin to actually start any of them, I just- kept planning about it. I guess I should've start first, but I am so confused on where to actually do it.
Can I stop being in pain?
I don't think you can, right? It's a part of life after all. All I want to know is, can I still get better despite being so... sensitive in life? I'm so stupid and clumsy all the time and it probably makes some people won't trust me after this. It feels like I am not built for the current state of the world right now. I might as well be in the wrong place, in the wrong time.
It's fine. I guess it's fine. There's something else. Something that kept me going, something that kept me holding tightly to all my means. I don't want all of this to be over yet. There is something that I must fulfill, and I will never get enough of it until the day I die. All the words are true, and the prophecy aligns.
[9:41 PM]
Under any circumstances, I am grateful. I am glad to be alive and survived just well enough to get through another day. This may not be the last of my struggling days, but it surely is nice to know that you can take a break, eventually. At the end of the day. No matter how bad the damage was, I am at least glad it was over.
